Totally Luck

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Here i go again...Well im not sure what it is that i want to say but you know what sometimes there is an urge inside to say a lot and by lot i mean aaaa looot......I want to do something and that too a lot ,but why is it that I'v started feeling low as if im nothing..I can't chose myself and can't feel and say what i want to!!!!!!I'm from a small time town and with small towns the thing is you tend to become focus of attention for a lot many people but still i personally had a sense of freedom i knew i can be IT.But here i feel like im going into my shell.What is it that i should do ,what.Guess its backlflash all over again but few things I'm not gonna give away whatever maybe the pressure ,what ever.I'm giving myself a year and that's it and i hope and pray to God that please give me strenght and wisdom and a small portion of luck that things turn out the way I'v planned them to be.In my house with my man and my life.