Transactory

I am really amazed today.Want to know the reason 4 my amazement?If any1 could tell me where i could find God,i just once would like to talk to him and ask him that why had he created us and the love between us if in the end he had to just take our loved ones away 4rm us? When u see somebody in agony when one of there loved one had left them for the unknown,Ur compelled to think that v may fight for so much and we characterize everything as ours and yours but still the agony is that nothing,really nothing belongs to anybody.Even the fingers through which i type could be taken away any day.....God,will we ever be able to understand him??????